Why he used to say he wouldn't forget me

Forget you

I was shocked when she said:
“I’m afraid you’ll forget me”.
She asked for a list:
“Everything you know ‘bout me”.
That I’d save through time until the day that I’m older
To keep her in paper when she stops being part of me.

That girl that once lived inside of my heart
that black haired woman that shared often my bed
that brown eyed lady that I held in my mind
that beautiful person I wanted to wed
that bizarre personality I was in love with
that love of my life, was afraid I forget.

Forget all the feelings I used to shelter
forget all the laughs I enjoyed in her presence
forget all the tears her sadness had caused me
forget all the joy that I gained from her presents
forget all the past that promised a future,
that thanks to her I can live in the present.

I’m a dual person, with a dual life
And in both of them she was always first
Either to hate her and wanted to end it
Or even to love her and give her a kiss
But never, God, never, I lacked of her essence
Even when I tried for her not to be missed.

You’re afraid I forget you? Then I’ll let you know
And believe me that this is nothing but true
Even when I tried it could never be done

Out of my life, I wanted you gone
But it’s impossible to lose what’s part of your heart
And stupid to think that I could ever go on.

You taught me to deal with the sorrows of life
And how to realize the secrets of happiness
You taught me to trust the people around me
And how their disappointments shall not bring me into madness
It’s true, you made me the happiest man alive
And nonetheless you drowned me into sadness

So how could I ever leave you behind
when you are the reason I am what I am?
How could I ever forget all about you
If you are the worst and the best in my life?

I don’t know for sure, how our nature works
The past is the past, I can tell you that much.
And even if we want to fix what has changed
Nothing that happened will never change back.
But I don’t want it to, I want it all as it is
And you, as you were, as you’ll be and you are.

I’ll never forget you, because you already fit
in the life that you helped me, without knowing, to build
as a friend, as a lover, as you want it to be
as a simple person that I want to believe
I will always remember

Just as you’ll always
remember
me.